Ok guys. I’m changing up the bucket list schedule because today just felt right to talk about Health & Wellness! WARNING: There’s going to be a lot of swearing in this post. If you’re my mom or perhaps another elderly person you should stop reading now. Josh—here goes Unapologetic Bitch mode. Let’s talk health & wellness on the bucket list. But first, let me get REALLY real with y’all Right. F-ing. Now.
If you’ve worked for me maybe you’ve never noticed. I won’t cheer you on as you do things you clearly hate to do every day all for the sake of a number—a size, a weight, etc. I LOVE YOU FOR YOU! JUST AS YOU ARE! Yes, I’ll listen. I’ll even support you in not having a birthday treat at lunch if it’s the choice you actually want. But I won’t say “Good for you! I’m proud of you!” I’m proud of you if you did a 5k or a marathon because you never did it before and you wanted to try! I’m not if you did it to fit into society’s norms of what a woman should look like, what size she should be or how much she should weigh. F. THAT.
I’m not perfect though either. I still participate in the f’d up body shaming routine from time to time. Hell, I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t one of the reasons I quit my job. 60 pounds in 6 years at my last company and I saw people start to treat me differently. That pissed me off. No, I don’t want to continue on that path but I’m not going to hate myself for it either. My BRAIN and AMBITION is still ever present.
So let’s get really vulnerable and talk about the numbers (to give them less power! over all of you) but more importantly, the FEELINGS. I’ve weighed 140 and been miserable kicking my own ass, tracking everything and depriving myself daily.
I’ve weighed 200 and felt pretty f-ing fabulous and had the best sex of my life (TMI, but #ForReal). I’ve also still let a number stop myself from seeing old friends, going to family gatherings, singing in front of a church, taking trips or doing certain activities (like skiing, but then I did it… or rock climbing which I still haven’t done). But I’ve also told myself to not wait for the weight anymore and completed Ironman triathlons and booked trips to Paris on a whim. I’m not perfect. There’s good days and bad days.
Even tonight I’m supposed to see a few people I haven’t seen in probably 8 years. This morning I woke up and had the dreaded thought–
Ugh. I don’t want them to see I’ve gained so much weight since the last time I saw them. I always know what question comes next “are you still doing those triathlons?” Every time I want to respond in a smart ass way saying “Yes! Did you know you can do them at MANY different shapes and sizes?! “
I’ve ran marathons at 145, 165, and 185 pounds. And I got damn near the same time in every single one.
I’ve done an Ironman at 170 and I’ve done Half Ironmans at 165, 175, and 190. I’ve felt like a strong, mother f-ing badass Every. Single. Time.
I’m quoting the numbers and saying this as much for your reminder as mine. It’s an arbitrary number. If you’re going to let it stop you from doing the things you want to do when you want to do them then you’re literally wasting away on TWO levels—your body and more importantly, YOUR LIFE.
So…here’s my bucket list for HEALTH & WELLNESS:
- Never participate in people’s bashing of their bodies, discussion of a coworker’s latest diet or exercise regime that’s all about hitting a number. I like to think it’s the #1 thing I can give women everywhere. Just don’t participate in the conversation. Nope. Won’t go there with you. I’ll listen. But I won’t say much else.
- Bike a century (100 miles). Completed during Ironman training in Summer of 2013!
- Climb a rockwall at REI or Vertical Endeavors or something like it.
- Run a 5k. Completed Dave Ryan’s 5k 9/19/10.
- Run a half marathon. Ran 16 miles on Sunday, 9/12/11.
- Run a marathon—I’ve done 4! Ran Twin Cities marathon on 10/3/10…and again in 2011 and a marathon as a part of Ironman in 2013 and TC Marathon again in 2014 with my brother in law, Ryan.
- Learn how to swim reasonably well. I grew up on a farm. I legit never knew how to swim. Completed! I took lessons Dec 2011 – Mar 2012 to complete my bucket list goal of doing a triathlon. Never guessed I would do an Ironman!!
- Complete an Ironman Triathlon. 9/8/13! One of my proudest moments to date!
- Do yoga more regularly. Working on it now.
- Bike to work for an entire summer.
- Learn how to do a flip turn. Yeah…I swam 2.4 miles in open water but I still don’t like to do flip turns. I HATE getting water up my nose.
- Go snowshoeing. Completed. Jan/Feb of 2016 @ 4 Play Event in Fort Snelling Park!
- Learn how to cross country ski and do it regularly for a winter at Hiawatha Golf Course! Learned @ 4 Play Event in Fort Snelling park last last Winter, but I still haven’t bought my own skis yet!
- Get my hearing tested. Nate swears I’m a little deaf…he’s probably right.
- Read a book on sports psychology. I read Elite Minds in 2014.
- Run an adventure race! Check. Nate & I do the Urban Assault ride every year. Here’s pics from last summer:
- Learn/Try surfing!
- Complete a cycle only event.
- Become that person that works out in the middle of the day just because I can. I’m doing it now that I’ve quit my job. So fun!
- Meditate and/or do yoga daily. Started a daily meditation practice in Summer of 2016. Loving it!
- Continue loving myself no matter what. Embrace the changes in your sizes & your choices. I used to love marathons. Then I loved triathlons. Lately I’m feeling more gentle choices for my body that don’t involve 5+ hour training rides. Things like walking, hiking, yoga, swimming and weights. That’s cool! Embrace it!
I’ve been no less than 5 sizes up and down throughout my adult life. And I probably will be again. Time to stop letting it stop me or any of us from doing the things we WANT to be doing!
Haters gonna hate. You do YOU and LOVE yourself for every single minute of it.
QUESTION OF THE POST: What’s on your bucket list for health & wellness? Inspire me with some ideas!! My list is ever growing and I’m really in need of some new inspiration in this category. Struggling to find what’s next after so many marathons and triathlons. What’s next for you!?
Lastly, what are you going to do THIS WEEK to check something off the list or set a date to check it off? Me?
- I’m going to go upstairs right after this and turn on my InsightTimer App for a 10 minute meditation.
- Tomorrow I’m going to the pool and will challenge myself to flip turn 3x! Who cares if I look ridiculous?!
- By the end of the week I’m going to find & sign up for a rock climbing thing.